A year might not be enough.
We arrived on this crazy island, almost 1 year ago. 1 YEAR … whaaaaaaaattttt???? How did that happen? When we got here, all that was on our mind was getting through this and going home. Funny that at that time, I thought ‘home’ was a flew plane rides away … and now, as I sit here, I’ve never felt more at home in my life. We live in a tiny, two-bedroom apartment, in a third world country and I truly don’t know if I’ve ever been happier.
Our first few months here in Grenada were definitely not a walk in the park, but I’ve written about that before. To recap, things were CHALLENGING. But, I was a spoiled rotten American who was used to spending every waking minute with her husband and suddenly I was completely removed from both of those things. So, we’ll just call Term 1 “The Adjustment Period.”
Then we had our summer back in the states and it was, by all means, glorious! But, I realized, after returning back to Grenada that having EVERYTHING at your fingertips isn’t necessarily all that it is cracked up to be. I came back to Grenada, from the U. S., refreshed, organized, and ready to make the most of our adventure. I spent our fist month back focused heavily on organization. Of course, like all things I do, I dove in head first and didn’t come up until I HAD to. Unfortunately, that means I went a little overboard … haha, imagine that!!! BUT, as all things in life, it’s finding a balance. And, after a month of being a ‘bit’ overzealous, we’ve found our happy medium and now our house operates like a well oiled machine.
Now, onto the good stuff! Organization was one goal, but not the best one. Now that the organization is in place, it is time for the “making most of the adventure” part.
A few weeks ago, I had to say goodbye to one of my Grenada friends. I may not have survived first term without her. Damn it, goodbyes suck. But, her leaving really opened my eyes. I’ve been in a SUPER introspective, and reflective, mode since she left … haha … well, more so, than normal!! As much as I hated her leaving, it really made me open my eyes. I should have spent more time with her … we should have had more wine nights … I should have hugged her a little longer when I said goodbye. No more should have’s for this girl!
Now that my focus has shifted, my heart aches that we only have a year left. 1 year?? I don’t know if that is enough. The last year has, quite literally, flown by. That CANNOT happen again. The past three weeks have been jam packed with all of the things that make us happy … daddio, the beach, our friends, boats, snorkeling, beer, rum punch, our friends, the pool, yoga … did I mention our friends??? Yes, having no dryer sucks. Not having a dishwasher is a royal bummer. Living in a place where you can’t predict what the grocery store has, or when it will have it, has its challenges. Trying to make peace with the creatures around you, and maybe getting stung in the process, isn’t ideal … but you know what? I’ll take it. I’ll take all of it. Because all of that ‘crap’ is so overshadowed by the good stuff.
The GOOD stuff, like going to pick up your husband and celebrating after he killed his midterms. The GOOD stuff, like standing on the beach … listening to music … drinking that last drink (which maybe you shouldn’t have opened;) ) surrounded by these people that you’ve know for just weeks/months, but you can’t imagine your life without … that is GOOD stuff right there.
After these two weeks of pure enjoyment, I have vowed to myself that I will FILL the next year with these moments. 1 year happens way too fast and I am no where near ready for this to be over.
So, as in all blog posts, there is some philosophical reason for me to write. Tonight’s … well, let’s see … how about, ‘don’t judge a book by its cover,’ … that will work. 1 year ago, I saw Grenada as this thing we needed to overcome. Something we needed to just survive and move on from. It is so much more than that. The life lessons would blow your mind (blog post to come). In the new adventures you go on, don’t judge too soon. Let it happen … it might be a million times better than you ever hoped it would be.
We have 1 year … ONE YEAR … whether it is enough or not, it’s all we’ve got.